Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Delight in Life !!




This card was for a sketch I did over @ 2pp's. I love the Friday sketch there because you have a week to work on it. I have not played for a few weeks, but plan to get on them in the fall.

All supplies: SU...Buttons: Unknown

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I have been struggling a little lately. I am a believer in Christ and lost my home church a few years ago. We started going to another church, but never felt at home and stopped going. In the meanwhile my husband was ordained and has been doing stuff at a local tattoo shop. Yes, a tattoo shop Jesus loved them too.. He did it because he is into the music scene and about a year ago one of the local youth was killed He was unable to have access to the family and to him before he passed. Jon, (my dh) wants to reach the unreachable. I think God gives us different missions in life. I am not sure a business suit preacher would reach these kids may bee so and they reach those who are put in front of them. He wants to reach those that others may be afraid to. I love it. I am not as involved as I used to be. It was much easier when I did not have 3 kids. I miss being involved and then again it was a lot at times. So, anyway want to know what the church did to me that hurt me so deeply.


It's such a long story but this is the short version.. I was turning 30.. a Huge deal to a young girl like me... My family was throwing me a huge surprise party. ( I did not get a bridal shower ) so this meant a lot to me. NO ONE SHOWED UP..NOT ONE PERSON ATALL It was me my moms and my sister and gran. It hurt me so bad. they had tons of food and a sheet cake. it was awful. I felt like I was stood up to for the prom... Just a little history, I worked the nursery went every wed, Sunday and to every event. I had a huge party in Aug for all the young couples (they all came to that). My dh and I went to bible study every Tuesday (young and married all our age people).. I was so hurt. I never stepped foot in that church again and to this day 3 years later I have never even gotten a call NOT ONE CALL. Now, we were going there for a few years attended weddings baby showers etc...


3mnts before this happened I was not sure if we belonged here. My dh got very ill and was in the hospital for 7days.. the pastor never came to pray of anything. I was one of the ladies that brought meal for those who had babies, etc...no help came then.. I got over that, sorta but, not one lady coming or calling hurt and still does. I know I need to forgive them.. It's just not happening. I can't believe that these couples never called us. We did a lot with them our kids played etc. Nothing led to this the Sunday before the party all was normal.. I did what ever was asked of me. and my BBQ over the summer was a huge huge hit. SO many people told me how awesome it was. and how they loved it..


I am rambling, but needed to talk about these hurts. We live in a small community there are not that many churches. and many are the same as above. People try to follow Christ in the confides of the church.. I am guilty of this also. I hope figure something out soon. Two women I met online and I may start I bible study via the Internet if anyone want to join us.


I need to hear from God now. Today my check engine light went off. I prayed and prayed it would not need to be in the shop. Thank you Jesus....


I am sorry this has been such a blah post. Just a little history on my pain and the Glory I know I need to find again.

2 comments:

Sandy said...

We have more in common than we ever knew, Dawn...I'll tell you the story someday, but just know you're not the only one. The Church would be a great place if not for all the people, huh? (lol) It'll take some time to trust again, but I encourage you to try...what I've learned with churches is that rather than assuming they'll be supportive coz they are "supposed" to, I assume they might not be and test the waters a bit. Share a little of myself, get involved a bit, see how that goes---rather than diving in full force with the assumption that they'll automatically prove they're just as on board with you as you are with them. People are still people, and aren't always going to act as we would wish, but don't toss out the good with the bad. There ARE people who love out loud. (((hugz)))

Andi (RrlScrapGal) said...

Dawn,
My heart aches for you my sweet friend! So much I have tears in my eyes...
I am not an active church goer... yet, feel I have a strong spiritual side, a desire to be a woman of God, and have to admit I am closest to God when I am outside in his creation we call Nature...
I would love to be part of an online bible study....
I love that Sandy knows so much, and posts passages on her blog.
I am a Catholic...my parents were both Catholics, and 'left', but after my Dad died, I got active again... I taught kindergarten bible study when I was single, which I was doing when I met my husband... Yet, he made it clear he was not a church going man, and I married him anyway...
My struggle has been how to get to church when I live so far out...and as the only one who wants to go. My kids are very curious and I think now that they are older they would go as well. They WANT to go to Bible study school!
When we first moved here, I would take the babies with me, and it was so stressful... One time I fell on the ice, Sami fell too, she was almost 2 yrs old, and I had Jake in the baby carrier... in church I was 'hushing' the kids, and have never had a peaceful moment to myself when I went. It was an 'ordeal'.
I love God, he has gotten me through some tough times... I have participated in two bible studies with my 'little old ladies'. It would be great to have one with some friends...