Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Life and the annoying part of it!!

Well, if you are in a good place, good mood or about to start your day, fast forward this sappy post...lol

Do you ever just have one of those weeks!! Well, I am having one right now. I wonder were God, is. I wonder why my job is full of lazy people. I wonder why I let people walk all over me and when I try to stop, it bites me in the ass..

I have a husband that loves me. I always watched movies where the man adored the women, and never thought I would have that until about the last year I realized he really does love me. It's a really great feeling when you know this to be truth.

As far as where I am with my relationship with Christ, not so good. I gotta work on it full force, but that nasty satan, keeps telling me I am not worthy. Not having a home church for a few years is NOT helping. Living in a town where it's small in the winter and huge in the summer, does not offer many new or spirit filled churches. My husband is ordained but, not ready to start of "real" church. My thoughts on church, is well to be honest it sucks. People try to make things a lot harder than they need to be, and focus wayyyy to much on religion rather than relationship. I don't know a lot of Christians that are perfect, but I don't know a lot of them that care more about the relationship.. It's all about power, money and the never ending ability to say who they are and not feel it. KWIM???

So, my sad sad song is over...lol Just needed to vent on paper. Not, everyone life is perfect, and sometimes reading that makes your own life seem okay. Normal even. Women to often are told life is supposed to be one way and guess what it's not. It's okay to have bad days, weeks etc.. (if it continues seek help) It's okay not to be superwomen, supermom or super anything. Just be yourself, and if you figure out what or how to do that..Let me know!!

Peace,

dawn

1 comment:

Sandy said...

HUGS Dawn! Church can be a sucky place at times...but God does command us not to forsake meeting with the brethren, so don't give up! My church focuses on relationship with Jesus above religion, and they do a pretty darned good job of it most of the time. If only we could get rid of the people....or some of the people...LOL! It's always a struggle, I know.

For now try going to some good churches and listen to podcasts. My church's sermons are all online; links to the last few are always on our webpage (nwcpodcast.com) and if you subscribe in iTunes you can get older ones too. Get the truth in you, and it'll make a lot of the other worldly stuff easier to let go!

Love you!!!!!!